Truth.

Today my mind set is all about truth. Truths that people don't like to talk about. It's also been stuck on emotions. Not only about being emotional, but having emotions and not being afraid to share them.

Truth is, we all have emotions. Unfortunately a lot of us are taught not to show them, not to share them, and to be tough. I was one of those people. That makes days like today especially hard. Today is one of the days where I just don't want to be alone. I want to cry when I feel like crying, I want to laugh when I feel like laughing, and I want some one there to share it with me. however, I feel like I can't share that with my parents. I feel like they just won't understand it. They tend to be a little insensitive. So the days I cry, I cry alone, or I cry with my arms wrapped around my horses neck or with my dog curled up by my side.

That brings me to another truth. Fear is another truth of my life. As I watch all of my friends grow up and get married and have kids I feel like I am being left behind. I feel like I will never find that some one to be with, that some one that deserves to share my life. I'm afraid of never being happy with some one else. I'm afraid of being alone forever.

Truth is today is one of those days that I could be sitting in a crowded room and feel all alone. I've text three people now just to say hello and none of the three has text me back. I feel like I am the only one that doesn't have any thing important going on tonight. I feel completely alone tonight. Truth is, tonight I just want to cry. Another truth is I have no reason to sit and cry. It's just one of those days where life has over whelmed me and I don't know where to turn. I know that we all go through this. And I know that when I wake up tomorrow I will feel 100% better.

Truth is, no matter how old we are, how wise and mature we are, we all need a friend at some point in our lives. Today is my day. And today my friend just happens to be my beloved miniature pincher that I can always count on. he always knows it's time to cuddle when I just want to cry. Even if there is no reason to feel lonely or cry I always feel better after I do. Another truth, I truly think that this is one of the things that makes me female!! :) lol

It's okay to laugh, It's okay to cry, It's okay to tell a friend that you need them. It's okay to feel alone, it's okay to be afraid. We're all just human. I'm pretty close to 100% sure that we all go through it.  If we open up and tell other about it, maybe we don't need to go through it alone!